Frustrated

It's getting more and more weird and awkward going to/visiting that place, socializing with those people whom I dislike. I feel like I have to put a mask on and act and talk the way that is not me. I feel tired too having to do that everyday and I don't have a choice. Hanging out with , try to fit in a group of people you dislike is really a bad idea. It's gonna end soon and I can't wait.

Disgusting Creatures

Human are just selfish creatures who love no one but themselves. They always talk about love but they all love someone for some reasons and look for something in return. Unconditional, pure love simply does not exist and when you hear something like that, it's just bluffing.

I have been trying, trying so hard, doing everything I can but It has come to a time that I realize I just can't no matter how hard I try. Has God really rejected me and left me alone with all my sins? Does this world have really no space for me? I am hurting so bad and feel like being cornered. It is a complete and perfect toture forcing to do something that you don't want to do. And life is just so good at that. These days the thought of killing myself comes across my mind more regularly. But I still have one important reason not to do that. I'm just scared it is weakening.