I have been trying, trying so hard, doing everything I can but It has come to a time that I realize I just can't no matter how hard I try. Has God really rejected me and left me alone with all my sins? Does this world have really no space for me? I am hurting so bad and feel like being cornered. It is a complete and perfect toture forcing to do something that you don't want to do. And life is just so good at that. These days the thought of killing myself comes across my mind more regularly. But I still have one important reason not to do that. I'm just scared it is weakening.